Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey my chickie karen Sorry i never replied to your txts the last few days just needed some time to get stronger hope you undertsnad nothing against you at all you have been lovely yto me Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxx
Wish I could take away the pain that you are feeling and sorry that I can't but always remember that you're close to our hearts and always in thought, lots and lots of ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) and much love your MUS chickie and baby chick xxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie teresa So nice to hear from you and thank you for all your support and ind words Hows our baby chick doing? Hope she is ok and yourself too? Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
dont you ever worry about not replying to my texts there to let you know i'm thinking about you and sending you all my love and strength at this awful time. have just been worried, but so glad your bit more able to come back tonight and chat, your always in my thoughts
hi sorry to but in i havent been around for a bit mell just to let you know i am going through exactly what you are. its been nearly 3 weeks since my steve went the feeling of wanting to be with him is slowly going now.i have great grown up kids 9 lovely grandkids to try and live for please it will pass i promise keep strong for you and yours again sorry to but in but wanted to let you knowv i do know how you are feeling lynda
hey all my chickies Sorry to have to love and leave you all now but bubba chickie kirsty wants to use the laptop so will have to go now. I hope you all sleep well and have lovely dreams Thank you to all of you Much love and hugs your MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hello lynda Please don't think you are butting in on here. Everyone is always welcome. Thank you for your kind words and so very sorry for your loss. I'm also sorry that i have to go now as my daughter wants to use the laptop but i hope to catch you again when we can chat longer. May you have peace where ever you are and have a very peaceful night Take care good night and sweet dreams Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
