Hi
Last week, I took my 89 y.o Mum to A & E as she said that her right arm felt heavy and really limp and she couldn't grip anything. Suspecting she'd had a stroke I took her straight up to the hospital.
They also suspected she'd had a stroke so did a scan on her brain, the doctor then came and dropped the bombshell that they'd found a mass which they believed to be secondary. The day after they did a full body MRI scan and found that she had lung cancer which had spread to her brain.
We are waiting for the team to get back to us as there might be some treatment to prolong things so I am trying to stay positive that she'll be around for a while yet but I just don't want to see her get really ill due to that but what is the alternative, the doctor I spoke to said it could be months but obviously can't be too specific as everyone is different.
How does life change so drastically in 24 hours? My Mum is amazing, she spent her whole life making sure I was ok and even with this hideous diagnosis is still worried now that I'll be ok if anything happens to her, I know cancer does not discriminate but right now I am SO angry.
I'm not sure she really understands what is going on or maybe she does know and is denying it to herself or trying not to upset me. It's just heartbreaking to see my dear Mum like this.
I found myself wandering around the supermarket yesterday, tears streaming down my cheeks, people looking at me as though I am mad. I bottle up all the emotion until I go to bed or I am alone in my room but yesterday was just too much, even seeing packs of her favourite biscuits or the coffee she likes sets me off.
All I can do is comfort her and look after her the best I possibly can, she has looked after me all my life so now it's my turn.
I guess I just don't know where to turn next, I am sure there are many people out there who have experienced or experiencing all of this and just wanted to reach out and connect xxxx
