Thank you for reading, in a nutshell breast cancer, masectomy oct 2023, weight loss March 2024, oesophagus cancer diagnosis, reconstruction after op jan 2025, then after a recent pet scan, lymph node showing its back again.
i am trying my best to hold it together, he has come to some counselling with me, but he wont read anything, speak to any one, im more upset this time to be back on this cancer train, but instead of pulling together, its pulling us apart, if i keep a brave face on hes fine, but with my appointment this weds 26th to discuss what the hell happens next, ive struggled to hold it all in, crying, angry, then tearful again. Which basically means he withdraws, goes to bed early, ignores my tears, so that i am now feeling needy and pretty pathetic, which makes me more angry that i am feeling like this.
Any one else experience this reaction, i always read, my partner was my rock, couldnt have done it without them, i wish i could say the same. We have no kids, and family left, although some decent friends have said they are here if he needs to talk.
dont know what to do, thank you jules
