My mum was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer which has spread to her spine and hip bone about 4 weeks ago. She has been in severe pain for a few months but doctors kept prescribing pain meditation to treat sciatica. She has declined greatly over the last two weeks and is now bed bound, awaiting a second opinion before she can start radiotherapy. I feel like the hospital has been so slow regarding her treatment, with multiple cancelled or rearranged appointments. She even struggled to make it to one appointment to turn up and the department was closed! They had put the wrong date on the letter. I'm now so scared that they've left it too late.
I'm an only child and live an hour away from her with my 6 month old baby. I'm finding it so difficult juggling everything and feel guilty for not going to see her more than once or twice a week, but I have no other family to help with childcare and taking baby with me is fine for a few hours but then he gets restless and I have to leave. I'm also so sad for her that she's waited years to become a grandma and now she's missing out on this time as she's too poorly to even hold her grandson. We're now waiting on a space in a hospice for her. I just can't even think about losing my mum. She's my best friend and I don't know how I'll cope once she's gone as some days she's the only person I talk to. I feel so lonely already.
