Hello all, newbie here so bare with me
My mum has recently been given a cancer diagnosis and it has completely devastated me. I am already grieving a loss that may or may not happen on top of the stress, worry and anxiety of what is to come. I am 100% commited to supporting my mum all the way and thankfully she has a very loving husband (my dad) supporting her, amongst other family members.
Unfortunately I have a history of mental illness mainly depression and anxiety, of which seem to be triggered by traumatic life events. I am still recovering from a previous life event which felt like it had sent me to hell and back. I'm very concerned that I already feel like I'm drowning and that terrifies me as I need to be able to function to look after my children and work. I simply don't know how to process these types of things in a rational way. I feel like I'm falling off a cliff.
Does anybody have any advice?
Hi Zingy123
Feeling pre-grief is very common as we can see in this blog and hopefully some of what you have been through before might be helpful in recognizing your own feelings. I ended up doing a living with less stress course and it helped me to concentrate on what we have rather than making plans for a future I had no control over.
Do your children know about the cancer, you might find the guide on talking to children and teenagers quite helpful
I hope you find you made a great choice by coming on here but remember you are welcome to ring our helpline as that can be something of a more instant fix. If having some face-to-face contract it might be good to see if there is Maggie's centre anywhere near or alternatively use our in your area tool.
<<hugs>>
Steve
Sending you lots of hugs and 
and positive vibes your way
