My mum found out a week ago she had anal cancer, she had a stoma bag fitted she been home for 3 days and things were looking OK, she had a bit of pain back and front and today she looked well. My brother has been looking after her as he lives with her, I gone round for couple of hours week days when kids are at school.
Today the stoma nurse came out and said she has separation and bottom of her bowel has folded inside, they said that she might have to go back in hospital which she obviously doesn't want to. They are hoping packing it will help. We know more tomorrow.
I just feel so useless, I couldn't visit much in hospital as kids were on half term till Mon and Tues she came out. Even now I'm struggling as I have to take kids here and there. I'm suffering with my mental health which isn't good at the moment and I'm feeling guilty about that and it's not helping when I'm at home I'm worrying about my mum, normally I talk to my mum about the kids how I'm struggling with them and obviously not letting on how bad it is. I don't want her to feel any more stress. So now I'm trying to sort my house, kids and my mental health aswell as worrying about my mum. How do others cope I just feel like im letting my mum down. But if I go to see her I'm letting me kids down. I'm trying to split myself in 2. But I'm so worried about my mum it scares me she not going to get through this. I feel so alone in everything I feel so much guilt like im stuck in the middle either way I'm letting someone down
