My mum is 84 and was diagnosed on Wed 3rd May. She has always been so positive and self sufficient but now I'm just watching her fade away. I never thought in a million years I wouid be watching my 84 year old mother go through this cruel disease. I don't think she has long left to live and I am just broken. My father is watching her every day and I'm scared for him too. I try to be strong ad I just breakdown when I leave her. I don't want her to suffer and I know she is not ready to die but we don't have any control of this and I just want to scream so much. I know im not alone but just feel it. Thinking of you all too 
Hello POper123
Welcome to the Online Community. I hope that we can offer you some support and information.
I am so sorry to see that your Mum has been diagnosed with Peritoneal cancer. It must be so hard to deal with as she has been independent and self sufficient previously. It must hard also worrying about your Dad as well. The feeling of a loss of control and feeling alone is perfectly normal. There is no right or wrong way to feel in these circumstances. We can not take away what you are all dealing with but hopefully we may be able to offer some support.
I will pop some links here with some information that may be of help..................
Peritoneal cancer forum - Macmillan Online Community The community is divided up into forums and there is one specifically for people who are dealing with peritoneal cancer, either themselves or for a family member. It might help to be able to speak to others who are going through what your mum is going through and to be able to share experiences- if that is something you would want.
Primary peritoneal cancer | Macmillan Cancer Support This is a bit of information about peritoneal cancer that explains about possible treatments etc. I found it is better to look at the information on here rather than use google as that information is not always reliable.
Supporting someone | Macmillan Cancer Support This is some information and links to help people like yourself who are supporting someone else with cancer. There are some useful links right at the bottom with other ways to contact Macmillan if you need anything else.
Practical support when you look after someone | Macmillan Cancer Support This may help as well.
I hope these may help a bit but please let me know if there is anything else that would help. If you feel like you want to talk to someone- the support line number is at the bottom of this and they are very good
Take care
Jane
