Mum - Struggling with adult child's diagnosis

I went through the same pain and completely understand what you are going through. I am here for you if you want to have a chat x

Hi, and thank you for responding. How did you cope? I won't deny that I wish that I didn't have to wake up in the morning, and that my son doesn't call. It's so so selfish of me. My son is so horrible at times, which I understand, he is so scared.

I know how you feel. Its a very difficult situation and children take all of their anger on their parent as they go through such a dreadful time. Keep him and yourself busy, watching movies, cooking food and get his friends and other family members to talk to him or visit him, so this will take pressure off you, at the end of the day you have a life to get on and you can only help him if you are in a right state of mind.Please take ever day as a new day, arrange counselling and therapy for him and yourself  through NHS .

How old is he?

My son is 37 (I think lol), everything is complicated by his general health which is appalling, and the fact that he is an alcoholic Autistic, and I have challenging health issues as well as long term mental health issues (bipolar and severe generalised anxiety).

Sadly, he has pushed people away. I'm not allowed to talk to anyone about him, (including his wife), he feeds bits of information which is completely his right.

At the moment he is statutorily homeless and seeking accommodation. I've cashed in my pension so that I can pay for his rent.

To be honest I don't want to get on with life, I understand that my feelings in part are due to my long term mental health issues, but I feel so guilty. Regardless of his age, he will always be my boy, and to watch him suffering in this way is indescribable. But aren't I selfish! I just don't know how to help him.