I feel resentment that my husband, who was diagnosed a year ago with terminal cancer, has not yet died and set me free. I feel trapped in a marriage which used to be loving and has turned into one in which he constantly whinges about life. He has gone from being my rock, to someone I don't recognise. I try to be sympathetic but I feel my life is being drained from me and any joy I feel is taken by this mood hooverer.
For my mental health I went back to work. There I feel joy and happiness at home I feel drained. Don't tell me to talk to him about how I feel, Ive done that, it works for a few days and then we are back to misery.
I am the worst wife in the world
Hi Head620
If we look at Your feelings when someone has cancer we can see how resentment is not an uncommon emotion. I can certainly understand too how work where we feel in control can seen joyful and being at home waiting for what feels inevitable can be difficult.
BTW - you are definitely not the worst wife in the world, just someone trying to deal with what is next to impossible in the best way you can, thank you for sharing on here though because there will be plenty who think "me too" but not got up to say this.
<<hugs>>
Steve
