6 months on from my mum's diagnosis of stage 4 bowel cancer and I am still finding it hard to deal with. Somehow I thought I might "get used" to the fact she has advanced cancer but clearly not. Chemotherapy cycle 8 is due this week and the side effects are really starting to increase for her which is heartbreaking when she's unwell for 10 days out of each 14 day cycle. She is due a scan next week to see how things are looking. Whilst we as a family desperately hope the chemo has done something I am terrified incase it hasn't. I've had anxiety for years and at the moment it's terrible. I spoke to my GP who recommended counseling through Macmillan as NHS takes a long time. But I don't want to use up a valuable resource as it seems impossible to think anyone can help me to deal with mum's life changing diagnosis
