Hi I’m new here my wonderful partner was diagnosed with GBM4 terminal brain cancer early July 22 he’s so strong and positive…had tumour de bulked 18th July and starts chemo and radiotherapy this coming Monday…planning mri showed new growth as not all the tumour could be removed and since the scan I’ve totally gone to pieces…I’m constantly crying,but I’m not even able to hide it from him and he’s comforting me which makes me feel an absolute failure as I’ve been so strong for him since his diagnosis…I feel like I’m falling apart and I need help to help him…am I alone in feeling like this x
Hi Bird67
On here nobody is ever alone and no you are not any kind of failure just someone trying to cope with devastating news - well either that or I join in being a total failure too.
That staying strong bit - I tried that, lots of people do - then I broke, I (usually) managed to cover up any crying by doing in the shower.
If we look at Looking after someone with cancer we can see how "typical" we really are. Sometimes when I talk about what we have been through people say "how do you cope?" and my pet answer is generally "when were we given the choice". I know talking helps, I know that I had to make some space for me because otherwise I will not be ready when I am needed - but it is not easy. Having friends who understand though is wonderful - welcome to our family.
<<hugs>>
Steve
