Struggling

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Hi Hugging this is my first time posting in this group, although I have been reading the posts on here for some time.

My gorgeous mam who is 52 was diagnosed with Stage 3c high grade serous ovarian cancer on the 1st June following a long battle of getting her diagnosed and a huge operation. My mam also has the BRCA gene and I am waiting to be tested.

Mostly my mam is coping so well, she lost her hair which was everything to her but she is taking everything in her stride and honestly making me so proud

She has just had her 3rd round of chemo and she has found this one a little bit tougher but she’s also starting to struggle a bit more emotionally. I feel that when she struggles, I struggle and when she is happy, I am happy.

I like to keep busy, keep as normal as possible with work but every now and again I feel like I can’t breathe, I find myself so upset almost like a panic attack. I am really struggling to cope at the moment, I haven’t felt right for the past week and I think that this may just be my anxiety creeping back up at me. I just want to be positive and strong for my mam.

I’m not sure what the point of this post is, but I’m just really struggling all of a sudden. I get lots of strength from reading the posts in this group

  • Hello just wanted to comment back to tell you you’re not alone. I found out on Monday my 52 year old dad has cancer of unknown primary which is quite rare and prognosis is not good (usually max 18 months but we are wanting to fight that and prove doctors wrong with dietary changes and supplements, we find out soon if he is eligible for chemo etc) I feel the same as you. Sometimes I am ok and then other times I break down in tears and can’t breathe as I am so close to him and cannot imagine my life without him. I am experiencing so many emotions which I don’t know how to deal with or process. I am trying to focus on the things I can do (support him, change his diet, keep him positive, give him supplements) and not focus on the stuff I can’t change. Make sure you allow yourself to scream and cry and validate your emotions because there is no right or wrong way to do this xx

  • Thank you so much for your response it is just nice to know your not alone although it’s awful there’s so many people going through this horrific experience!! 

    Thinking of you and your dad xxx