My grandmother has been diagnosed with terminal brain cancer. She is currently having 3 rounds of chemo but this will only ultimately increase here time here, not cure her cancer.
Since she was diagnosed, 1.5 months ago, she seems to have deteriorated so suddenly. She can’t use her left side, now relies on a wheelchair and my grandfather lifting her from bed or the car. She still seems there mentally, but slower now, compared to how she always has been but it’s so difficult to see this sudden change as she was always so active and on the ball, always so witty and correcting people on facts.
i‘m struggling a lot - I’ve felt lucky having never lost someone close to me but to know I’m going to lose someone I’ve pretty much seen every day of my life. I don’t know how to comprehend that there will be a day that she won’t be here any longer. I live an hour away now and I’m trying to visit as much as I can but the change every time I visit is so noticeable, I worry so much for her, not knowing how long is left. I just need some advice, anything, how to accept what’s to come, I can’t comprehend a life without her in it. I know this situation isn’t about me, I’m trying to support how I can, it’s just difficult, very difficult.
Hi Watson17
Watching anyone we love get progressively more unwell and knowing they are not going to get better is incredibly difficult and it might help to look at this blog on anticipatory grief.
It is difficult but talking about things can really help, posting on here can be really good as we can take the time to sort our thoughts out and on here everyone is pretty much in the same boat.
<<hugs>>
Steve
