My nan has a diagnosis of aggressive cancer and was fit and well, 2 weeks later she passed after a very quick deterioration.
I haven't physically seen her since April and didn't make it down in time.
I cried loads during the two weeks but now I can't cry I just feel numb and like I'm just existing.. why can't I cry!
I still can't believe she has gone and it keeps popping into my head that she is gone at random times.
How can a fit and healthy woman just suddenly be gone in 2 weeks!
Hi XoXoX
so sorry to hear about your nan.
Emotions are complex things - you'll cry when the time is right. It might be a phrase someone says, or whiff of her perfume on a total stranger or a song on the radio but it will be something sometime.
My own grandmother died 17 years ago and I can honestly say that there hasn't been a day when I haven't thought about her, One "trigger" is when I'm making the cheese sauce for mac'n'cheese. I can still hear her saying "Will you use the back of the spoon, lassie" as the sauce starts to thicken.
Give yourself time to heal.
love n hugs
Wee Me xx
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