Hi, I recently found out my Mum has breast cancer, she is finding out treatment plans and the severity of the cancer today and how early they caught it.
I don't know how to feel, things feel so different now and I know it sounds stupid but I dont know how to act around her, It doesn't feel normal so I cant act normal. Everytime I think about her having cancer It makes me cry (a lot) but at the same time it doesn't feel real at all. I cant wrap my head around the fact that its happening to my mum. I have A levels in 2 weeks and I cant focus because Im so anxious and overwhelmed about my Mum. I dont feel like revising and I keep zoning out. I need to do well to get into uni and if i dont i know my mum will blame herself. I have told my friends at school about Mums cancer but now I am scared they are going to treat me different or not tell me as much stuff because its 'not as bad as what im going through'. I also feel so selfish for being so upset when my Mum must be feeling 100 x worse. Anyway yeh thats it, please can someone give me advice or guidance, I dont know anyone in a similar situation.
Thank you x
Hi Spookyspoon
Welcome to our community, though we are always a little sorry to meet another friend we are very glad you have found us because you are so right it can be difficult finding anyone in a similar situation - not seen as a great topic down the coffee shop.
You do not stupid at all to me, indeed if we look at Your feelings when someone has cancer we will see how typical we are. There are lots of benefits to be got from talking though - that old saying of a trouble shared being a trouble halved.
Do talk to your teachers about what you are going through as they may be able to get some help with the exams
<<hugs>>
Steve
