My mum was diagnosed with cancer early 2021. It’s spread to quite a few areas but she had chemo and is now due an operation to remove as much cancer as they can - 18th January.
whilst I know this is a good thing and really positive considering I thought she wasn’t even going to be here for Christmas/New Year, it’s also terrifying. It’s a big operation and will take a lot of recovery and may also mean a stoma bag which in itself feels huge even though better to have that and survive.
I just don’t really know how I feel about it. I want her to have it but she’s also looking and feeling so much better just now that it seems unfair to be putting her through more.
im just venting really. There are so many what ifs I’m almost scared to think too positively in case it doesn’t go to plan. Feels like I’ve been preparing myself for her death since the diagnosis that now she has the chance of more years it doesn’t feel real.
sending hugs and love to anyone else reading this and going through anything similar right now. I won’t even mention the added stress the other C word creates in my mind!!
