My friend was diagnosed with cancer around a year and a half ago. I have put a huge amount into her and her recovery but recently I have started to feel angry because I don’t feel like she did her best at life. She always hold herself back. I know these are terrible thoughts but they keep going round in my head. I don’t know why I feel angry. I feel emotionally drained. I know it’s not her fault or anything she is ‘doing,’ but I feel like I have reached my limit in terms of what the cancer does - i.e life is so different now - for me as well as her. I have lost a dear friend and it just goes on and on - more chemo, more this and more that. I can’t see an end to it. I miss my friend and am still choosing to be there for her and I know I am being selfish but I feel like I don’t have anything else to give at the moment. What with the pandemic as well I feel like I would love things to be back to normal.
