Getting over the sadness and grieving.

To anyone who read this.

husband got small cell invasive lung cancer stage 4 

chemo/immunotherapy didn’t work and doctors suggested radiotherapy and awaiting dates to do it.

My same sex partner ,husband ,best friend,love,life …..my everything..I can’t imagine a life without him…

i have cried days and night.sadness and negativity overtook my life.

but somewhere in me now starting to wake up a much stronger version of myself .

i will fight with him,look after him as much as I can,love him unconditionally and if he live or die I will equally be happy for him.

easier said than done.

but That’s the sort of street I am at right now.

I learned a lot about love and why we are so afraid to lose it ,

grieving seems to have been playing hide and seek the whole time,the only thing is I just found it ..

my life is valuable .and important.it’s up to me to decide ,am I going to keep grieving or find solutions to go ahead and achieve bigger ,better things.

we as humans have great amount of physical and emotional strength that we hardly tap into during daily life.

situation like what most us are going through, make us see the world differently .it help us get a better sense of how things are and what they are made of.

we may be different but we are physically and emotionally much stronger than others.

because we have been shaped by a life changing experience.

You can always talk to me .

we are here for each other.

hugss