Hello,
My mum got diagnosed with secondary breast cancer in August last year. We have had a really turbulent few months with her nearly passing away in December through complications with her kidneys. With covid I ended up being able to spend near enough 2/3 months with her whilst on flexi furlough working from home. This was amazing and I enjoyed every single moment. I'm now back home working a really full on job with hardly any days off. With everything now opening back up I'm having a bit of a social life on the odd afternoon or day I have off. This has been amazing for me as I can suffer with depression and anxiety. This weekend I was able to visit a friend but I just feel so guilty for not spending that time going home. I feel I should be at home every minute I can be. We have also just found out the tumour hasnt shrunk with any chemp and is just stabilised. I'm incredibly stressed in terms of what this now means and treatment and how long she has left. They have said they will do radiotherapy and reduce the chemo due to the toxicity levels. Im incredibly scared but I know the inevitable will happen because we have been told it will but I just have so much guilt from wanting to live a bit but also working a full on job and hardly being able to see my mum.
I just want someone to talk to.
Hi
Thanks for sharing on here, I am sure everyone recognizes much of what you say and typing on here can be really quite a good way of getting words out with less of our emotions sometimes getting in the way.
I was in some ways lucky that my wife's cancer was well before covid and when I "broke" and walked in to a Maggie's centre at my local hospital I got to pour my heart out - and they helped me make a plan.
Posting here works for many people and many people will see your words and stand beside you, however sometimes we do want to talk to a real person - we of course have our helpline that is open 8am to 8pm - 0808 808 0000 - I have certainly cried at them in the past.
Another choice is using our in your area tool that can help find support near to you.
<<hugs>>
Steve
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