Breast cancer not coping

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Hi all 

this is selfish of me I know and can’t believe I feel like I do my wife had breast cancer 18 month ago and had surgery but I’m not coping I’m there and have been there for emotionally and still am but I’m finding it hard to accept the changes to the point of all past things in life are back to haunt me to the point I’m cracking up I try not but just can’t seem to get past it looking feeling the scar freaks me out 

I Know it bad of me but I’m thinking she would be better off without me being like this but love her so much any help accepted as I’m close to well let’s say emotions over taking 

  • Hi  and welcome to the online community

    I'm very sorry to read that your wife was diagnosed with breast cancer 18 months ago. Having a cancer diagnosis has a big impact on the whole family so you're not being selfish feeling the way that you do.

    I hope you don't mind me suggesting that you also join and post in the Carers only forum as it's a safe and supportive place to share your worries with others who are looking after a loved one with cancer.

    If you'd like to do this just click on the link I've created and then choose 'click to join' on the page that opens. You can then introduce yourself and post questions after selecting '+New' or '+' (depending on the device you're using) and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'. 

    When you have a minute, it would be really useful if you could pop something about your wife's journey so far into your profile as it really helps others when answering or looking for someone with a similar diagnosis. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You could copy and paste most of what you've said here into your profile or take a look at mine by clicking on my username to see the sort of thing you could add.

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  • Hi Mat74, 

    You're not being selfish, sometimes we can't help the way we feel and it sounds like you've been a great support to your wife through all of her treatment and I'm sure she couldn't have managed without you then and couldn't be without you now. 

    I hope you don't mind me saying but a couple of things that you said in your post particularly about past things coming back to haunt you and she'd be better off without you ( which I'm absolutely sure isn't true) sound like you may have depression (I speak from experience) You've been through a lot recently and its bound to take its toll on you as well as your wife. Please talk to someone about how you feel, if its difficult to talk to your wife then maybe your gp or a friend. Once you start talking and saying how you feel out loud it starts to help. I hope I haven't overstepped here but things can and will improve if you get some help with this

    I wish you and your wife well