My mum has been diagnosed with oesphagus cancer. In less than 6 weeks we have gone from having a healthy outgoing loving mum nan wife to being told she has 6 months to live. She is so poorly and has gone down hill within a week the fight has gone from her. We can only see her a hour a day 1 visitor. I hate thinking of her scared and alone in hospital I feel totally overwhelmed I am trying to work (My husband lost his job a month ago and is disabled) I feel sometimes I can't breath trying to juggle so much I have a 14 year old daughter. I just want to run away, I feel so selfish my dad is totally lost they have been married 52 years. I want to run and not deal with this. I am struggling I want to be strong for my mum she must be so scared it's horrible. Don't really know what to do.
Hi - you have so much going on I am totally unsupervised when you talk about wanting to run away and that is not selfish at all - just human. To be your best for everything you need and want to do it might help to pause for a moment to gather your own thoughts, it might help to read Looking after someone with cancer and it may well be worth consideration of talking to people on the helpline here 0808 808 0000 who might be able to help you look at your options
For your daughter to it might be helpful to look at Talking to children and teenager, if you have not done so before it might be worth talking to their teacher too as they can provide support in school for her.
Whenever you feel do post on here too, someone is always listening.
<<hugs>>
Steve
