Hi everyone, i was diagnosed with endometrial cancer last October which came out of left field and was totally off our radar, during this time my dad was my rock i was really fortunate and i had a full hysterectomy and they got it all. Fantastic then in January when our family started to feel like some kind of normality was returning my dad my rock was diagnosed with advanced biliary duct cancer which is 8cm and spread to his ribs which has resulted in broken ribs. We have been told there is no cure and he has been offered chemotherapy that will give him months not years but due to the Corona virus and him having copd it has now been delayed for a month at least 
I feel guilty saying this but i just feel totally consumed with it all and as if my family is drowning in cancer. We keep looking for hope and trying to stay positive but i totally do not trust the human body anymore, How do we over come this. Time is so precious but we have to isolate because of the pandemic he wants to see us and we want to be there for him and my mum too who is not only caring for my dad but also facing losing her soulmate,best friend and her identity as they have been together for 53 years. I am constantly on a roller coaster of emotions angry sad guilt for not being there and terrified that my time with my dad is slipping away like sand through my hands and i can't do anything about it.
To be fair I'm not sure anyone can answer any of my questions as i don't think there is any, i think I just needed to speak with people who will understand because this so much harder than having cancer myself at least i felt that i had some control over the treatment and a light at the end of the tunnel for recovery i feel so helpless I'm so angry with cancer its ruthless.
We are a close family and me my mum and sister are doing the best we can but he is our hero our safe place ......
