Feeling fed up

Here I am all ready for a serious moan - feel free to move on.

Hubby had his 61st round of chemo on his 61st birthday in May - what are the chances of that?

Since then his mother, who was diagnosed with lymphoma some 18 months ago, had to go into a palliative care home & subsequently died. He and his brother - who can be a volatile fruit loop - have been trying to sort out all that needs to be done, although the basic admin - flowers, vicar, music, reading, eulogy, tea after etc - all fell to me.

I have a dear friend who I have been waiting months to visit - last time I planned to see her i got off the train, had lunch and then got a message to say other half had gone to A&E with temperature so I got on next train home - this time I  had to put off due to Ma-in-law being ill.

Hubby has lost a lot of hair recently on chemo - despite it being one he has had before -  and does not look at all good. The stresses of the last few weeks have really taken their toll on him.

Last week he had chemo & they struggled to access his port - leaving it sore and now inflamed so he is back on mega antibiotics and drugs to counter their effects on his stomach. We were due to go away this weekend as it is my birthday tomorrow but of course that is off now.

I feel so fed up with it all - I know it is really selfish of me as he is going through so much more.

I have no family of my own and I feel that my friends are all probably sick of hearing me moan as it has been going on for more than 3 years.

Just wanted to vent - job done

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