Wading Through Syrup!

Hey and welcome to the forum. I'm glad you have decided to come here and let your feelings out, and its lovely to meet you, although not so much under the circumstances you find yourself here. 

I'm 23, bedbound most of the time and have my mum who's going through chemo (hopefully finished) a quadrant mastectomy and radiotherapy was thrown into the mix yesterday, so I can completely understand how you're feeling right now. 

You dont have to apologise at all for the downer, you can come here whenever you want to vent, or just want someone to talk to who truly understands, as it's easy for people to say 'I know what you're going through' when they really dont know. 

But you are doing an amazing job. You're managing to take care of your mum and your little one, as well as being there for your husband and doing everything at home, that is no small feat. The screaming while going to get a prescription, completely normal! (Well I have screamed at times, and so have you, so that must mean it's normal surely?! Haha) but it really does all have an effect on the person who's taking care of someone going through treatment for cancer. I mean, I've sat there at times, which I'm sure you have too, thinking 'why my mum? Why did it have to happen to her?' Because it just doesnt seem right. 

You keep doing what you're doing, your doing a brilliant job. Just inbetween all of that, take some time out for yourself. Even if it's to drop us a note on this forum, we will be here to listen, chat and really understand what you're going through. Take care of yourself too, because you need to be well, to keep looking after your mum in the way youd like. And, I know how hard this is especially on those horrible days, but just try to pick the positives out of each day. It sounds silly, but with every bad day mums had through chemo, each night i sit there and think 'well she might be poorly now, but this chemo and how she's feeling now, is all to get rid of the cancer, and that's the most important thing'. It really helps. Finding positives in each day about anything I find helpful, maybe something your little one has done that's made you proud or is a new achievement etc. 

But we are always here for you, as am I. You'll always have someone to speak to on here, and if you have any concerns about your mums symptoms etc. Do try our 'Ask A Nurse' section, as that will be very helpful to you. 

Lots of love, healing and light to you, your mom and family, 

Alex xxxx

Thank you LexiT7 for your kind words. 

You have a lot to deal with too by the sounds of it. 

I am 56 and have been through this too many times before. Somehow this time is harder, maybe because I am older and menopausal. I don’t seem to have the energy. When my Dad was ill, I was working full time, had 2 teenagers and coped much more, having said that I was 16yrs younger and Mum was his main carer, I was the taxi driver/errand runner LOL!

I try not to think more than a day or two in advance, just take each new day as it comes.

My little one is a blessing, as are my 4 grandchildren, they do bring some light relief and joy for the future. 

Today is a new day, bring it on!

Good Luck with your journey.

Love to you & yours from Me and Mine xxx