Having a bad day

Oh lord maisiemae what have they been up to?

Hope you can sleep. 

Jx

 Jenny - im desolate and drowning in fury and heartache. They just arent interested, sit back let me do everything, i just want someone to be interested. Her husband settled in home, happy as pig in shit, watching TV, lazy fuckwit lets everything happen. Brother just upset he cant wear new black suit. Sister become 'angel to mums husband' emailing everyone updates like she organised his care, its been me me me for 27?years as she wasnt interested, i got his name tags, i sewed them in, i rehearsed him for assessments, i found right social worker. Sister who couldnt take time off for mum to help but has now had a week off now mums dead! Never did anytging other than the garden in her time. Lived abroad 10 years with a visit for 2 hours every three years whilst i never ever missed more than a few weeks visiting. Her loss. I feel quite violent towards her. I despise her superiority, picking off the bits she wants to do. I want to run away. 

Maisiemae you must be at your wits end and exhausted with it all.

They don't realise it's not all about them. If they had been around more when she was alive and seen what you have maybe then they'd understand. ..but they didn't. You were there then and now for her. They have a shallow understanding of the truth as they were absent. They therefore behave weirdly.

I have no advice here that may help you now other than think of your lovely mum as she was before.  Keep her in mind.   The siblings aren't going to change.  They will annoy you.  Accepting that might help?

Sorry am rambling. 

Hug.

Jx

What a great word maisiemae "fuckwits" I can relate to that up here in my desperate loneliness it's brought a wry grin to my tear stained face xx

I just read "wry grin" as DRY GIN.....worrying!!!

Dad refused treatment initially this morning so rather dramatic start. Has now gone in though. ..without treatment he can't survive. 

Oh Yantibee. I thought i was doing well until last night, i was alone, had there been 100 people in my room i would still have been alone. Desolate, desparate to hold her hand again, her to cup my face in a way only a mother can. My tears are constantly there but they cant quite come out. Maybe its because Im busy organising,  i cant talk real talk to others, unless experienced the desolation is unimaginable. Is my head attached to my body? Many kind thoughts 'mm'

Hi,

It's like role reversal isn't it, becoming the parent to your parents, but they still make their own decisions, 

Oh had cramp, tonic water is good for that so the doctors advised, goes with the dry gin theme.

Praying for some rest and better days and nights for you all.

X

Hi Annette said,

I lived in a village called Silver End from 1982-2002. Then after a 4 year gap to Surrey I then moved to Halstead for 2 years before I moved to Coventry 9 years ago. I still have close friends in Essex & see them when I can. 

Sue xx

Bloomin autocorrect! That should have said Annateresa!!