Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out. Â I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down. Â Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her. Â My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later. Â I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better. Â My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help. Â She had a major strop. Â I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard. Â I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up. Â Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it. Â But I feel even worse now. Â I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else. Â I just keep crying and feel so very very sad.Â
Just a thought, Alex, you are able to apply for a sick note retrospectively. I had to do this when I nursed my Mum for 3 months and my school wouldn't pay me. Go see your Mum straight away if you feel you need to, you can get the doctor to back date a sick note x
Just a note to say a huge heartfelt thank-you for all the kind messages of support I have received from this group. Although I am struggling a lot ( as I know we all are) at the moment, I am still following.
Take care, Anneteresa
Husband getting results from x ray this afternoon. Just on way home to go with him. Endoscopy next Thursday. At least they are doing everything pretty quickly.
Elenium
Sitting in the hospital waiting for husband to have endoscopy. Â Feeling nervous and rather sick. Â He's been in there for half an hour so far.
We completed on mum's house yesterday. So it's gone now. Â Tuesday night I was there sobbing my heart out. Â I didn't like going there, and I didn't want to go there, but the thought that I could never go there again was horrible.
I dropped some spare keys round last night and they invited me in. Â It actually helped. Â It's someone else's house now and not mum's anymore. Â I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.Â
I just need husband to be ok now.
X
Elenium
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