Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out.  I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down.  Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her.  My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later.  I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better.  My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help.  She had a major strop.  I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard.  I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up.  Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it.  But I feel even worse now.  I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else.  I just keep crying and feel so very very sad. 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    That sounds great Maisiemae I do like Air bnb used them twice bot hood experiences...

    Everytime I type Maisiemae I get it wrong. ..predictive suggestions...


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  • Maisiemai, you paint a truly vivid picture.

    Love to all xx

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Bobles2

    I can properly call myself a wimp! On Wednesday next week I was supposed to be going to Donington Park to scatter some of Alan's ashes. I've backed out. I'm not ready.  Maybe further along my journey, but not now. 

    The chopper finally took off about 5am this morning, but haven't heard why it was there.

    Hugs to all 

    Sue xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Not wimpy at all Sue...just not peaceful with it yet jx

  • Sue,

    Totally agree with Jenny. Bob's ashes are upstairs and will stay there until I pop my clogs. Or that's how I feel at the moment.

    Then we will be scattered together at the little sea cove near where we had so many happy family holidays.

    Yes, we were one of those cars that motorists followed behind the dreaded caravan. But they were the only ones we could afford and were wonderful.

    It's strange times at the moment for me as I can have really lovely happy thoughts and then they get pushed out by the sad memory of the last few weeks of his life. Not sure how to deal with that. MIL really depressed and I don't know how to deal with that either.

    Hey ho.

    Hope everyone is doing as best they can.

    Love to all

    Xxxx

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Sue. There is NO W for wimp in your name. Never say that. You have the courage of a lion x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    You are warmly invited to our Service of Thanksgiving to celebrate 125 years of providing care to our patients and their families and carers. Taking place at Southwark Cathedral on Saturday 20 Maythe service will be lead by our patron, the Bishop of Southwark. just a thought.... This is 125 years of Trinity Hospice the one which is close to two people in our groups hearts. Southwark Cathedral is very beautiful. Would anyone feel this might be a service we could be together? Anyone wish to come? 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    I would like to if my sister can swap cover weekends for Dad care...

    Jx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Maisiemae, do you know offhand what time it starts? I'll be in Norwich the 18th & 19th meeting my aunts to scatter Mum's ashes in the river near where she was born. Dependent on timing & travel I could try & make it.

    I don't feel so upset about Alan's ashes today. I took a sleeping tablet & that helped.

    Hugs to all

    Sue xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Sue

    i will find out. x