Having a bad day

Maisemae. ..hug... 

We're here too.

When is puppy arriving.

Jx

(Sorry if you said already)

Choose on 4 March. Collect on mums birthday - good as I want to be busy and as you may know puppies are hard work x her name will be Mabel x

Lovely Mabel will help I'm sure. 

Mad cat came in and sprinted up and down the house like a crazy thing today for no good reason then rubbed himself all over me. Nice he remains bonkers as ever..no biting today.

Jx

Hi all , on the counselling one I was told to wait 3 months to get over the initial shock before seeking professional help!!! God knows how they help you though?! It's so lonely here without Jill all I can do is kiss her photos and hug the urn and that feels comforting I know but put everything that has happened into some perspective?? I don't know I just feel so lost my kids are lost the heart has gone from the home and it just seems like all our lights have gone out. Maybe these people can help us turn a light back on but at the moment that seems like an impossible task 

Take care my friends x

Yantibee wonder why 3 months...it seemed to make sense when she said same to me but now I'm not sure.

3.20 and Dad up as can't sleep. .zzzz

Am knackered!

Hope he sleeps now given him warm drink. Sister took the non herbal nytol and its knocked her out. Doesn't work for dad. Makes her drowsy next day.

Jx

I REALLY want to go home to my flat. Maybe after funeral I'll suggest going home each night...a bombshell for Dad and sis though. 

Will think on it.

Jx

Nytol v addictive (im hooked). Can gp give yr dad zopiclone for sleep? Or something so that he does sleep and you can go home to sleep. X

That does seem a bit strange about the waiting for the counselling. That's not what I have been told.  With regards to it helping, I suppose it depends on the person.  I didn't think it would help but it has.  It's made me look at things in a different way and get my head round them, but it's not for everyone.  It is nice to just let it all out but then we do that on here, don't we?  This is our own group counselling - I think maisiemae said that recently.

The minister came last night.  It was very emotional but we also laughed too and told some stories about mum. My brothers have said that they will be coming to help sort mum's stuff out.  Better late than never I suppose.

Hope everyone has an ok ish day today.

X

Am now officially a zombie. .

Dad tried the only drug he's allowed for sleep gp gave not sure if it's zopiclone? He was awake entire night when he took it and agitated.   There are some drugs dialysis patients can't take as they're toxic or they only take low dose. 

Last thing I want today is to go to sort order of service.  Ugh. 

Jx

Oh Jenny - not much more i can say. Apart from coffee? X