Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out. Â I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down. Â Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her. Â My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later. Â I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better. Â My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help. Â She had a major strop. Â I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard. Â I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up. Â Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it. Â But I feel even worse now. Â I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else. Â I just keep crying and feel so very very sad.Â
I fell asleep in the chair this afternoon & am just catching up the posts.
I'll wear red while eating pasta. Italian is my fave cuisine.
Maisiemae, I nearly missed what you said about the breast clinic. Do you mean to say that while you've been mourning your Mum & supporting us you've had this worry too?? Oh Sweetheart, how scary!! Big Hugs.
Sue xx
Hello Jenny and everyone,
When I last spoke in person to Bob at the Chapel of Rest some of what I said were "you went through hell to get to heaven" is so true of us all.
I think everything that you and Elenium are doing for your mum's' funerals are as so right and as they would love, so do it.
Xxx
Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.
Or even everything!
XxxÂ
Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.
Janet 78 welcome.
Sad to hear about your Mum and that you've been where we are now.
Hug.
Jxxx
Hi Maisiemai,
So boob clinic?
 I think I need to go to the doctor too, thought I may have pulled a muscle when trying to lift Bob but if I'm honest, I know it isn't.
Take care of yourself, xxxx
Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.
Bobles. Dont wait. Ive ignored/dismissed a feeling. Got the appointment, was seen today and boob man felt what i can feel, and straight for immediate mamogram and ultrasound. Promise i will let you know outcome. I wrote that post when scared and feel awful i did, ultrasound said couldnt see anything sinister but to wait for results. This page isnt about this its about that.. But thankyou - now i want to hide under a rock xxx
Maisiemae, hopefully it'll be ok but you did the right thing in getting it checked. Let us know how you get on.
Bobles, definitely get yourself checked out and soon.
Welcome Janet 78. So sorry about your mum. We have been very lucky to find each other. I could not have got through this horrendous journey without all my dear friends. I continue to need their support and will give mine for as long as needed.
I am so very tired as have hardly slept the last couple of nights. Starting to feel rather emotional so I think I will take myself off to bed now and will, hopefully, sleep.
Night all.
X
Elenium
Did you sleep Elenium?
I want to be in a dark place alone but can't be because of arrangement's.Â
People keep asking me questions.Â
Does anybody know this..my Mum has a cottage left to Dad my sister and I are attorneys but not addressed this yet. It is insured in her name I think. Does the insurance still stand now she's died?
Jx
I slept a bit but been up since 6 composing letters to mum's friends that I only have addresses for. Feeling a bit strange. Worrying about them being upset.Â
Re the insurance on property I have to find that out also for my mum's house. Not sure about it either. So much to do.
Just want to sit quietly on my own but have to go and pay for the wake today.
Elenium
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