Not sure why I am so sad and feel so alone but I find that now I have had the all clear and an slowly getting back to doing more things after surgery, despite still being in a lot of pain some days, people have left.
I wasnt inundated with messages when I was diagnosed or during my surgery and immediate recovery but people did check in. Now I seem to have been forgotten.
My family just tell me well you are cured now and when I am down I just get told not to be sad. I have nothing to be sad about.
But I live with the scars and the pain every day still wondering why it happened to me and what I did wrong to deserve it.
I know people have it so much worse than me and survivors guilt is real when you know others have not been so successful in their fight. Which I guess is why it feels so lonely.
Where do you turn and who can you talk to when you are now 'well'?
Sorry for such a negative post but I don't really know where to release my feelings.
Thank you for listening x
