Hi,
Have come online tonight as feeling exceptionally lonely today and just miss having someone I'm close to, to share things with.
It's hard to make new friends in your 40s as it is, but having incurable cancer gives it an added difficulty, like that's expecting a lot from a new friend...
I miss old friends but they're old friends for a reason. I'm closest to my adult daughter and we have a fantastic friendship, but she's still my daughter and I hate putting on her and worry (feel guilty) that I might worry her too much with my very particular 'stuff'.
I've searched for in person cancer groups in my area and only found one that's for breast cancer (I don't have breast cancer) and a running type group thing that meets once a month (I currently have mobility and health problems that put me off even a gently walk, for the time being at least).
I'm sure there's things I'll find if I keep looking, I just feel sad, and probably a bit sorry for myself today.
Wondered if anyone can relate, and wants to join me in my mini pity party in the hopes we can laugh it away.
I'm usually very upbeat and constantly put my face on for others, so feeling overwhelmed by these 'woe is me' feelings I guess.
Oh I dunno...
Sending hugs to any similar lonely cancer patients out there 
