Feeling unsupported and a burden

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I have breast cancer, recently having had a mastectomy. A couple of days ago my emotions have gone mad, i feel low, crying, angry, said a few nasty things to my partner. I just feel out of control with emotional distress. My partner isnt helping by asking is me being upset my new normal and to act my age. I dont feel he listens even though i try and talk to him. Today he said he doesnt love me, i can make my own way to my hospital appointment even though i cant drive and i dont feel i have a support network. Im struggling badly with body image which has triggered historical ptsd. I dont know what to do and need some support. 

I have had to struggle washing myself, as he wouldnt help. He hasnt made me anything to eat but got his own. I feel abandoned at my most vulnerable 

  • Hi Jellyfish20

    I’m so so sorry your hubby isn’t more supportive. My first hubby was not very supportive but since being married a 2nd time I couldn’t get enough support. Please try to look after yourself and ‘f**k him (sorry to swear). I wish I could send my hubby round to give you a huge cuddle. I let him read your message I hope that’s ok. He can’t believe he isn’t supporting you. What a beeeeep!!!! Here too f you need a chat. P.s don’t stay under that cover for too long I’ll come and pull you out xxx Two hearts

  • Thank you for your lovely reply. Especiallythe last line lol. Going to get up today although its always in a minute. Hope all you lovely people on here are having a lovely day and once again sorry for moaning xxx1

  • I know how you’re feeling. I was diagnosed in March with Leukemia. It’s at a low stage thankfully. Also diagnosed at the same time with Bronchiectasis (can just about pronounce it now). I cried everyday for 3 weeks after being told. I didn’t want to get out of bed before I knew I was ill as I was suffering a bout of depression but that just knocked me for six. I didn’t go to work and sat on the couch for a month. Then for some reason I just gave myself a good talking to and got myself up and doing things slowly. Back at work and I hate my job but it has kept me busy. Just take one day at a time. If you want to cry then cry (not for too long). It’s good to get it all out. Look after number one (YOU). If you have to go it alone without your hubbies support then lean on us we will give you that support. Don’t suffer alone ever. I’m not going to say be positive as I’m fed up hearing that word. Just take a step at a time. Do some things you really like doing and enjoy. Always here Sue xx

  • Thank you its nice  to the know so many people care.i wish i could cry but then i dont think i would stop. I am all ready for 22nd may and god willing ill be here to make some serious decisions after the op. I feel totally selfcentred just now but my prayers are with everyone suffering any kind of cancer xx

  • Just been reading your post again, so very sorry to hear aboutyour unfeeling partner. Dont they understand that a kind word or a wee cuddle is all the we want .my husband says he doesnt know what to say well mr being struck dumb doesnt work! I askedhim tomake me egg n chips, hardly gourmet dining, but he replied that he cant make fried eggs seeing as he is 74 where have igone wrong? Anyway on a more cheerful note i have just spent a lovely day withmy best friend and her partner, nothing fancy just blethers n salad but youwould notbelieve the lift it has given me. Pink carnation o ffered me her husband for a cuddle but i do hope that everyone here has a cuddler or a best friend. Not lookingforward to the 22nd but fingers crossed

  • Well the 22nd has come and gone operation cancelled! I got phone call at 14.30 cancelling op next day totally gutted! Scheduled for 5th june now but not making any plans. Guest house recommended by hospital for my family didnt refund money or be willing to change date so on top of thst £400 out of pocket. What a wee torn face i am soz feel better soon for rant