Feeling overwhelmed

U can get cool pads u put in your pillow case  so you're not constantly turning over the pillow, trying to get a cool bit.

There are also various complementary therapies instead of HRT, but I'm not allowed to mention them lol.

Good luck re surgery x

Thank you! Still don't  have a date but should be in a couple of weeks. How are u?

My CT scan results weren't brilliant - my cancer tends to pop up somewhere else every 2 .5 to 3 years n it's done just than. But I'm still to b monitored every 3 months, as usual. So if the docs aren't concerned then I  shouldn't be either.

Have u  still not got an op date yet? Hope it won't be long now 

Oh no! Poor you. I'm sorry things aren't great for you right now. By 'monitoring' do you mean you'll be getting more scans, blood tests etc? What then?

I've still got no op date hopefully going to hear this week. I'm getting pretty fed up now. Feeling very heavy, uncomfortable, not sleeping well and a few new symptoms too. I keep crying!! Feeling a but unloved too. Some friends and family are being quite weird, absent really. Thank goodness for my lovely husband.

They'll do a CT and MRI scan every 3 months, as usual. No meds for now, maybe in a year or 2' s time if things continue to grow. They keep a very close eye on me and will increase frequency of scans if they think it's necessary. Should I need meds in future, there's about  4 they can use.

Sorry to hear you're feeling a bit unloved n that some family n friends are being absent. It may be their way of coping but doesn't help u does it?

As u say, " thank goodness for my lovely husband"

I've got one of those too.

Do post when u get your op date. Thinking of u n sending big hugs x

So, my op is in a week and a half. Got a copy of the anaesthetist's report in the post this morning. All good, but makes it all sound very scary, so feeling a bit overwhelmed again. I have finally managed to get hubby to go out for the afternoon without me!! He hasn't left me alone for weeks, bless him! So I managed to write him and our daughter a letter each which I will leave with my friend. I guess I just needed to write a few things down for them to read in the future, just incase the worst happens during the op. I'm really not worried for myself, but I hate thinking about them being sad without me. Writing the letters seems a bit defeatist I suppose, but I feel now that I've finally finished them, that it's a positive thing, taking back a bit of control. I am of course hoping and reassured that the op will be fine. I will be out of that hospital in record time!! I got a good bit of advice from a lovely outreach macmillan nurse yesterday. She told me that when worries about the op, future etc get too much, to just stop and get through the next little chunk of time such as today, this morning or even the next hour or so, just concentrating on making now as good as it can be, because the op isn't now, this afternoon etc. So what's the point of spoiling now with worrying? She's so right. I know I wont stop worrying, but I am going to take things in smaller chunks and do some fun stuff before next week! Hope this can help someone else.

So, my op is in a week and a half. Got a copy of the anaesthetist's report in the post this morning. All good, but makes it all sound very scary, so feeling a bit overwhelmed again. I have finally managed to get hubby to go out for the afternoon without me!! He hasn't left me alone for weeks, bless him! So I managed to write him and our daughter a letter each which I will leave with my friend. I guess I just needed to write a few things down for them to read in the future, just incase the worst happens during the op. I'm really not worried for myself, but I hate thinking about them being sad without me. Writing the letters seems a bit defeatist I suppose, but I feel now that I've finally finished them, that it's a positive thing, taking back a bit of control. I am of course hoping and reassured that the op will be fine. I will be out of that hospital in record time!! I got a good bit of advice from a lovely outreach macmillan nurse yesterday. She told me that when worries about the op, future etc get too much, to just stop and get through the next little chunk of time such as today, this morning or even the next hour or so, just concentrating on making now as good as it can be, because the op isn't now, this afternoon etc. So what's the point of spoiling now with worrying? She's so right. I know I wont stop worrying, but I am going to take things in smaller chunks and do some fun stuff before next week! Hope this can help someone else.

Good luck for your op x