Sudden feelings of anger and despair

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Thank you I am going to visit my local cancer care centre tomorrow but I am a positive person and I hate the thought of this making me low but I guess I need to give myself time and talk about my feelings as you say x

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Hi JJ,

its so nice to hear from someone who gets it!

i had a routine mammogram in October and it’s been a whirlwind since then really. Thank goodness I had the mammogram though as the tumour was stage 2 , 2cm and no lymph node involvement but tested as HER2 positive hence the chemo and Herceptin. I think mentally I thought let’s get through the first part which I’ve  done but now it still seems a long road ahead still. My husband is amazing and our kids are older in their mid twenties so are not at home but after the last EC I have felt more angry and frustrated . I have managed to do a bit of work and also see my friends who have been amazing but again it’s hard for them to get it ... they just keep saying I am doing amazing . I feel better today than yesterday and I think I need to be abit nicer to myself!  I feel bad as so many people are going on this journey with young kids and so I know that I am not alone x 

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Hi you two 

I just wanted to say how much I enjoyed reading your conversation (just heard that - sounds a bit creepy. I don’t mean it that way). It’s so important not to feel alone

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Hi, I really understood the fair weather friends comment. I had to let 3 friends go as they didn’t know how to support me through chemo and radiotherapy. At first I was angry but I’ve learnt that my energy, thank goodness I have some, is now on those family and friends who stepped up. As for those lost friends I wish them all the best but no longer want or need them. It’s enough dealing with treatment without feeling so upset and analysing what went wrong. 

Hi Handson. My wife was diagnosed with Small cell Lung cancer in Feb19. She has recently been told its incurable but treatable. She is going through exactly the same emotions as you are. She has started shouting at buses and throwing shoes and just being totally wiped out because of her chemo. Its a hard thing to come to terms with cancer is but be strong. Talk to Macmillan or the specialist nurses at the hospital.

KEEP STRONG!

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Hi Billythedog,

i am sad to hear about your wife but am glad that her cancer is treatable. It’s such a hard thing to get your head round for you both.

I am much better this week and have talked to several people about my feelings which are I have realised perfectly normal. 

I think just because I am strong on the whole and positive I hadn’t allowed myself to feel angry and frustrated until after my last chemo.

I wish your wife well and hope that she and you have a good support network? 

YOU KEEP STRONG TOO x x