Mixed emotions

• Hi, my 82 year old dad has been diagnosed with cancer which has spread into his brain last week. There are times that i get upset, but most of time i don't him to suffer and be in pain. All his brothers and sisters have died and a couple are still suffering including his indentical twin. I have seen what you disease did to my uncles and I dont want him to be in pain and prolong suffering.

On the other hand my mum is 68 and I know she would potentially struggle on her own, we are not close and my uncle talked about moving her in to live with us when the time happens. Is it wrong of me not to want that, but also know that my brother needs to step up instead. All my life I was the invisible one, the quiet one and I independent from early age. 

I couldn't live with my mum, but what do I do if my dad requests it of me. I don't know how to feel at all.