My partner was diagnosed with cancer of the rectum at the start of the covid pandemic. His diagnosis had been delayed by the whole covid thing, because investigations etc were put on hold. By the time it was discovered, it had already spread to his liver. He has had a liver resection and a pelvic exenteration where they take the bladder, prostate, rectum etc. So now he has a colostomy and a urostomy. He has recently lost all his appetite and hardly eats a thing. The oncologist says that things look as if they are on the downward turn, and to expect him to get much worse very soon. He is 57. I have taken care of him all the time, and have managed to stay calm and kind of pragmatic until now (bar a few incidences where my emotions got the better of me). But now, oh my God, but now... i cannot stop crying! I don't show it in front of him because I don't want to distress him, but please, does anyone know how to cope??? I am so near to tears and if I see anyone I know in the street I just break down. I am crying now as I write this. Can someone please give me some help? How on Earth do people cope? I have nobody to talk to except my daughter and she has a lot of problems of her own. My partner's parents are from another country and I don't see them more than twice a year: they are elderly and unable to travel. The thought of being without him is too much to bear.
