I know it's selfish, I'm watching her and the pain she's doing through, wishing it was me instead.
I'm not sure what to do, I became happy at the thought of taking my own life if she passes away so I won't be here alone, I have kids and I want this all to pass but now. I can't focus at work and break down when she can't see my constantly.
I'm talking to therapists, and need to sleep but can't. I don't have a car to get her to and from the hospital either, are there options for that? Anyone find a way to relax and sleep?
Hi Kew
Many carers talk about being selfish you are far from alone in that.
Lack of sleep rapidly becomes a problem, hopefully your therapists can help with that and possibly it might be helpful to take a break from work for a while.
I know at my hospital they run a volunteer car transport service, it might help to talk to the PALS team at your wife's hospital to see if they have a possible solution for you.
<<hugs>>
Steve
