Hi
So mum was diagnosed in October at a time when the cancer had already made her extremely poorly we didn't think she would make it. Then her first round of chemo kicked in and it was like having my mum back, she was doing all the things she loves to do.
Then came the massive operation, longest day of my life. 7.5hrs.
Luckily, she is recovering well and making really good progress and the operation was highly successful.
But I feel I am losing control. Since this started I have had a need to do it all. All the appointments relay information to everyone, see my mum every single day because I feel the need and I feel so guilty if I don't worry. I have so much fear of her not being here.
I have 3 sisters who I have been bickering with although we are amazing support for each other.
5 months on and I still don't think I am able to process what is really going on.
I have my family who support me but two children with special educational needs and my sisters think I am falling apapart and i feel sad.
Hi Snowball13
With a son with autism and a wife with cancer I can relate. I know from my personality that I like to be in control but one thing I came to learn is that is sometimes little more that an illusion. When my wife was diagnosed I was busy planning how I would cope when she was gone and managed to imagine things much worse than they actually turned out.
I did a living with less stress course and that helped me focus more on the here and now and appreciate what we have, Janice is still going strong 10 years after diagnosis. Life still likes to throw curve balls of course - including being made redundant this year and essentially forced in to retirement.
It might help you to talk to your GP and see what help you can get. Lots of stuff in the news at the moment about SEN education and I know how difficult that can be without the additional worries.
<<hugs>>
Steve
