My elderly Mum was told last week she has cancer, which has already spread, after 4 months of constant, chronic pain (caused by an unrelated condition) and three admissions to different hospitals (none of which investigated her problems or diagnosed her properly until I started asking questions about her care). I'm her only support and an only child. I have no siblings, children or other family. I work full time but on minimum wage and am looking after Mum as I live with her in our local authority owned home, which has been our home for over 40 years. We lost my dad to cancer some years ago and the council will not add me to the tenancy as they say removing my father's name classes as the only occasion where the tenancy can be "handed down" - i.e. to my mother, yet she was a joint tenant with him from the start. I now face losing my Mum (I'm not daft, I realise that the cancer has spread and we have already been told surgery will not be an option for her so I know now that the clock is ticking). As the house is in Mum's name, when anything happens to her, I will also lose my home - the only thing that I will have left that I hold dear. Mum is the only reason I am still here. When she has gone, which will be in itself the most distressing thing I will ever have to deal with, I will be left, literally, with nothing. My age and income prevent me from renting privately or getting a mortgage. Mum's cancer has effectively not only condemned her, but me as well. I actually wish I could develop the wretched disease as well so that I know my future will not be something I need to worry about. I have already decided that should I become incapacitated in any way, I do not want any treatment which would save or prolong my life and have signed an ADRT. If I am told in the near future that I have any sort of medical condition which requires treatment, I will refuse it. I cannot even now enjoy whatever time I have left with Mum because my future situation (and I do not intend to sound selfish in anyway) and the fact I will be completely alone after, hangs over me like a toxic cloud. My life effectively ends when hers does.
