I'm sorry this post my upset you but I just can't do this anymore I'm absolutely broken mentally and emotionally spiritually. I have done amazing since my mother was diagnosed with cancer in December iv done everything care and medication made sure she isnt in pain iv done my best but I can't do this. For three days my mother has been completely unresponsive and had the death rattle and nothing she is still here 3 days I thought when they had the rattle that it wasn't long I know I sound like I'm rushing her off but I have watched this beautiful strong woman lose everything the last four weeks all dignity all human abilities she doesn't even resemble the woman she was looks nothing like her self she has been the through hell and I want this over for her I want her at peace I can't sit watching her breathing waiting for death for 3 days iv watched iv had no sleep its killing me. I'm sorry if I scare people it's been a awful awful journey cancer is the worst thing in the world it strip's the person you love of everything they are. I'm trying to tell my self I can do this last bit of the journey for my mum iv done everything up till now kept her wishes her dignity best I could but I can't do this bit I can't wait and watch her die its just to hard I'm broken and falling apart. Had anyone else experienced this and did it take as long for you how did u manage. Thank you and I'm sorry it's not nice to read xxx
Hi Darling34
You have gone so far above and beyond for your mum you have absolutely nothing to apologize for, it is an impossible situation and many would have broken before now.
Could I ask you please - ring the helpline here - 0808 808 00 00 - it is open 8am to 8pm. I have spoken to them (or mostly cried to be honest) in the past and they are wonderful and it can really help just to hear another human voice.
<<hugs>>
Steve
HI Darling34
I have no words to take the heartbreak away. I truly wish I did.
I'd echo Steve's advice. Give them a call.
Talk to her. Tell your mum its ok to go. You've done so much to support her but perhaps she needs to know you'll be ok once she's not here. Mothers protect us till the last.
Sending you a huge virtual hug and all the strength I have to spare.
love n hugs
Wee Me xx
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