Evening all,
It feels like it's been a long and tiring road. My wife was diagnosed with breast cancer back in November 2020. We've been fortunate that following the treatment and surgery it was reduced and removed safely. She is now on the road of recovery and anxiety.
I remember looking through newsletters and leaflets thoroughly when it all started, reading about how cancer can affect a marriage and naively thinking "no that won't be us". We've over come failed, IVF and IUI and pulled through together as a team. We've done everything as a team. Now I feel like I am grieving for my wife when she is still alive.
I am exhausted and don't feel like myself anymore. The feelings of relaxed and happy are a distant memory and it's horrible. They are replaced with feelings of resentment, anger and guilt for feeling the prior emotions
Anyone else gone through something similar? Any advice on what to do?
Thanks.
Hi . I know exactly how you feel. We had a full and happy marriage until cancer reared it’s ugly head. It robbed us of so many things that we’d previously taken for granted. My strong reliable, capable husband gradually became an ill person I was caring for. Our roles changed completely. Over time we got used to it and our love grew even stronger. I lost him 2 weeks ago and miss him terribly. Cancer messes with your life in so many ways. Take time to process your feelings x
Hi, I know exactly how you’re feeling. My mum has been diagnosed with brain mets. It’s changed her personality, she needs full care. I grieve for her, I miss the lovely relationship I used to have with her. I also feel huge guilt for grieving my previous life too. I’m exhausted, it’s physically and emotionally draining. I don’t think she has long to live, and the romantic idea I had of ‘spending quality time together making memories’ is in reality, managing her incontinence, pain, picking her up when she’s fallen again. I can’t sleep, I just worry and cry all the time. It’s so hard.
Hello
the only advice I would offer is try not to concentrate on negative emotions, they do you no good, you can’t change the past, enjoy every single day you have with your Wife, make every day count, tell her repeatedly how much you love her, hold her hand, listen to music, just enjoy each other’s company. Believe me I know how tough this is, al,I have now are memories, so the more you can make together out of your love for one another is the best way to go.
take care
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
Absolutely how can a life change overnight,droves me mad when people say make most of the time you have ,er well yes we would if he was well enough easily said than done,also relationships between friends are also the same they become distanced so whole life changes,hard to except life will never be the same again
I completely understand the angery feeling... the lack of control is so hard and drains me. I went through a stage of thinking my feelings didn't matter but I have learnt through the journey that they do... I hate feeling how I do, I almost want to apologise but I can't help it, the feelings are there.
I just keep holding on to the positives as I said in first post... not sure it will work but got to try something! It is a comfort to know others feel the same and I am learning not to feel bad about how I feel.
Take care
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