Hi
I found out 18 months ago my husband was having an affair, it came as a complete shock, I had no idea and it tore my world apart that the person I trusted most in the world had done this and risked a 34 year loving marriage for just sex on the side with someone who basically offered it on a plate, no strings, no affection, just to get attention and an ego boost (mutual of course) The affair was ended straight away but then 10 months later he was diagnosed with terminal cancer - I am still not coping well with the hurt and anger his betrayal caused although I have had counselling which didn't make me feel any better though it helped to talk to someone. My problem now is dealing with the feelings of resentment and upset/hurt/anger caring for him now he has cancer after what he did to me ? Sometimes I feel guilty and know I should be making the most of our time left together but it's so hard to feel loving towards him after what he did. I just wondered if there was another wife/husband on here that had experienced a similar situation ? Thanks for any views ?
I have no useful advice, but just wanted to say that I get what you’re feeling. The anger and resentment I felt towards my husband has subsided since his death on the 17th June, but almost until the end it was my constant companion. I’m just begin to realise that he’s actually dead and not just ‘away’ in hospital. I have been offered counseling by the palliative care team and have my first session on Monday. I don’t know if it will be of any use to me or if similar could help you navigate through what your feeling? Sending you my warmest wishes.
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