I'm not really sure where to start or what I want to write or should write? I am currently so lost and overwhelmed. My father has just been diagnosed with multiple myeloma and also chronic kidney disease. His cancer diagnosis came very soon after we almost lost him to multiple organ failure. He was so healthy, full of life, went to the gym every day ate relative healthy, doesn't drink or smoke. This came as a complete shock and happened all so fast. The chemotherapy is aggressive, its hard to watch him be so ill when he was always so strong. My dad is my favourite person, my biggest supporter and I am scared. I am only 23, I am currently studying a masters degree and I am his primary carer along with my sister who is only a few years older. This is a huge responsibility that we have had to take on. I am overwhelmed, I am tired, I angry, I am lost, I am scared and I need help.
Hi
I am sure your father is so proud of you going for the masters degree - one element that I know can be really positive there is the student support service, they are sure to have seen students in this position and can be really helpful - being a student is stressful at the best of times.
So glad you reached out on here - can totally understand your thoughts of getting through the multiple organ issue but perhaps a positive here might be that the cancer would probably have been picked up sooner that it might have been otherwise.
Watching our loved ones go through chemo is hard but it can help to feel remember that the doctors would not do it unless they thought it would make a difference - I found it quite helpful to see how much my wife's chemo drugs would have cost and be grateful we did not have to pay for them.
It we look at Looking after someone with cancer we see how common those emotions are, a major element of getting through I had to learn was how to look after myself because there are times I will be needed perhaps more than others - not always the easiest.
<<hugs>>
Steve
