So, here I am again! Pleading that someone here can help me make sense of this.
So in May of this year my eldest son was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma (21 years old)
On the very same week that he finished his treatment (last week) my middle son (19 years old) has been diagnosed with FAP.
Eldest son is doing really well thank goodness and now we wait to see the specialists with regards to middle son.
I honestly don't know how I am supposed to feel or react. I'm devastated with the diagnosis but also numb after already hearing the 'C' word so much this year. All three of my boys will now go through genetic testing and will all be screened depending on the results of the genetic tests.
My workplace were not overly supportive with the first diagnosis and the attitude so far on this is that it isn't cancer and that we should all think ourselves lucky. This agree with to some degree because yes it looks like we are lucky but surely I'm ok to feel devastated? To feel helpless and useless and to even feel guilty? Who knows, this could have come from me?!
Anyway, I'm a little lost. Hope you guys can help xx
Hi
Simple answer - NO
Longer answer - so sorry to read your story, not at all surprised at your reaction. Disappointed though unsurprised about the reaction in your workplace. I am sure some of your colleagues friends might be they are being helpful in saying "you are lucky" - we have lots of threads on here regarding what not to say - though perhaps as many saying nobody is saying anything.
I did a talk in my workplace - my disability, my strength - and lots of people said how positive I can be. There are times I have been wiped out though on the floor and friends here and at Maggies have helped pick me up dust me down and send me off to join the "real" world again.
<<hugs>>
Steve
