Just bloody ragin!

Hi @chickpie,

I certainly hear you - and you are not alone. I have seen a number of cancer patients who want to keep their diagnosis secret often because they are "fine". Sometimes they will even deny the idea that someone cares for them - my wife sometimes said I am ok you need to look after out son and yourself - well you know it just so happens I love you and I am not going to simply abandon you in the hospital even if you are being looked after  -our son also loves you - we care even if we do not actually need to nurse you.

I did a living with less stress course. The best bit was learning to appreciate the good days, the next best bit was leaning how to cope with the bad days - rage on here all you like - we understand. Transcendental mediation though did not float my boat.

People often describe a cancer diagnosis like a tsunami - well done for letting a little of that pressure off.

<<hugs>>

Steve

Thanks so much Steve. I’m thinking it’s all self preservation. If we’re all ‘fine’ the worlds just so. 
I hope your family have many more good days and I’ll certainly have a look into the courses you mentioned. 

You have every right to be raging.  I hate the word journey but your husband may be the one with the cancer diagnosis but this affects you too . This affects your life just as much and having to keep it secret must be so difficult. 

Hi there, I agree the diagnosis is as hard for me. It’s the fear I think for me too, the fear of being left behind but it’s his decision so I need to respect it. 
This isn’t easy at all. 

Could you get counselling through Macmillan even online just so you can say all the things you need to say and can be honest . Sometimes the smiling and being positive is exhausting x

Hiya, I’ve just no idea. I just joined yesterday, I don’t think very much is available with lockdown. Thanks 

The sad thing is when you’ve done it before you have to climb a mountain to get out the other side and then you’re pushed back down to the bottom and told now do it again. It’s so mentally exhausting, I have been known to drive on my own in my car and scream loudly. It’s like a pressure cooker. There’s no real answer, talk on here where we understand a bit of what you are going through. It’s a hideous journey sending you love xx

Thanks Jessie, guess some days are just harder then others. This is CTscan, consultant and treatment week for the Mr, always a tough time but I’ll just keep holding on in there, we need each other t be strong ️