Reaching the end of my rapidly fraying rope!!!

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I am on my own caring for my step dad who has lung cancer and 3 secondary brain tumours,  1 in the frontal lobe. He has been suffering hallucinations, falling,  and trying to wander off at all hours of the day and night. I have had approximately 4-5 hours of sleep all weekend, i lost it yesterday and rang 111 who told me to ring GP first thing this morning and tell them they need to reassess him and refer us for a care package.  thankfully I only work part time.  I have spent all day on the phone to GP, who only wanted a urine sample and told me to ring the adult social care team myself which I did, to be honest they have been lovely,  the third social worker I spoke to admitted that they could not get me any help for tonight as it would take a few days to get anything going, but she said I should ring the GP as they have an emergency care service,  I told her that it was them who told me to ring her!!! Anf did not offer any other help,  she then rang them for me and low and behold we get an appointment at 5.30 this afternoon,  after arranging a lift to the surgery, as I don't drive, we wait for an hour to be seen, to then be told there is nothing they can do to help my step dad sleep and therefore I get some sleep,  all they are doing is writing a letter to the local hospice. My step sister has spent all day ringing the local McMillan support worker and they have not returned any calls. So I have another fun night ahead of me....  if this continues for much longer I will be a wreck. Sorry for waffling I just needed to vent. 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Thanks again for your advice , it is amazing how just being able to talk to someone who understands helps, I will book an appointment with them although after the past couple of days I don't have much confidence in them.  A hot bath sounds like bliss. I am looking forward to it .

    Thanks again 

    G

  • Please feel free to chat.  This nightmare is something none of us want to be in. 

    It was always something that happened to others.. I guess now we are those others.

    Life is shit !!

    Hope you had a nice bath. Please  try and chill 

    Hayley x

    Hayley 
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    FormerMember

    I would ring the local hospice myself. Ours have been wonderful, after finding my other half not being able to walk one morning I rang the local hospice and explained about his cancer diagnosis and they got him the Mri and treatment plan that he needed. Now he can visit the hospice twice a week which gives me a bit of a break.

  • How are things going. I do hope you were able to relax and chill a little. 

    Hayley x

    Hayley 
  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Cyprusfan

    Hi hayley, 

    things seemed to have settled for the moment , I had 2 nights with a night sitter so I could get some sleep, and he slept really well last night without the sitter so at least mentally I feel much more myself,  physically I am absolutely knackered,  every part of my body aches, it doesn't help that I have crohn's and pernicious anemia and my B12 injection isn't due until next week,  at least when I have that the fatigue should wane a bit.  They have cancelled his chemo next week as the oncologist wants to see him again first as things have escalated so quickly.  Hopefully next week I'll have more of an idea what to expect going forward and be able to plan, 

    Fingers crossed for another good night.

    Gill x

  • Hi Gill

    So glad that you have had 2 nights good sleep and rest. It really makes a different.  I know stress makes our bodies ache like mad. 

    It's one appointment after another isn't it. 

    Hayley x 

    Hayley 
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    FormerMember in reply to Cyprusfan

    Hi hayley 

    You are not wrong there, it's just one thing after another,  I don't think I've ever done so much washing either, unfortunately we have had a few bed wetting issues on top of everything else,  some pads arrived from Amazon today so hopefully that will cut it down, although they are washable they are not as big as sheets act, and I don't own a tumble dryer so everything is hanging on radiators.  It looks like I'm taking in laundry GrinningGrinning:0)

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    I have no idea where those emojis come from? 

  • I can imagine that is adding to your stress. It's awful. I was onmy thinking today I haven't even given Christmas a thought. 

    Hayley