My Husband was diagnosed with Ewing’s Sarcoma in July this year. He has it in his lung. Having never been ill in his life (apart from Man Flu a couple of years!) he is struggling with sometimes not feeling well. Generally he is well most days it’s only after chemo days he isn’t great, he is on his 4th out of 6 cycles of chemo which is an intense course. On the 3rd cycle he developed neutropenic sepsis & was admitted to our local hospital for 5 nights. He regained his strength & was ready for his 4th cycle which went well. 5 days afterwards and he has been admitted to hospital again with neutropenic sepsis.
First time round I was terrified, this time we were aware of the symptoms & didn’t panic so much.However I am struggling with my emotions & I sometimes feel like I’m at my wits end with it all! I have family locally to me & a great friend support network so why do I feel overwhelmed with it all?
i am tired mentally, emotionally and physically and really don’t know how much longer I can cope like this?
Morning
Sorry to read your husband has been hit with Neutropeania again 
I'm surprised after the last bout of this G-CSF (info link) various white cell boosting meds were not offered.
Perhaps with Ewings he cannot have these injections ? My wife had breast cancer and also got NS but I am in the dark a bit with Ewings Sarcoma but it may be worth enquiring about as he has two more sessions to completion.
It can be tough on the carer when a partner is going through chemo when all you both seem to get is yet more hoops to jump through
Have you mentioned this to your GP ? maybe a short course of low dose tablets can help you sleep better so you don't so feel so fatigued and mentally 'washed out'
Hope this is of some help, G n' J
Hi
I think you should play the 'cancer card' with your surgeries firewall receptionist and get an earlier appointment....
If you just phone up and say you are anxious you get a low priority appt date, so do tell them how it is
G n' J
Hi Billythedog
Thanks for your communication. Yes some days are easier than others that’s for sure. On those days I am truly grateful & we do tend to make the most of it, although My Husband is adamant he is going to work those days! All be it he works from home, I feel on his good days we should be spending time together & doing things and enjoying it while we can, but all he wants to do is work! His company are not English and their ideas of being ill but continuing to work are completely different to ours, so my Husband feels he needs to work !
I count every day together as a blessing but some days are just harder than others & I feel guilty for feeling sorry for myself 
We have been together 45 years & married for 42, he is my soul mate, husband, Father to our 3 Children & Grandad to 6 Grandchildren. He is so positive and we are all trying so hard to be positive too but life some days are sh..!!!
