Awake and up all night

Hi Gilly, I remember those days, when getting certain meds, antidepressants and painkillers, to name two, was far too easy, and saw the consequences too often, and the medical profession dragged their heels in tightening up protocols for far too long, with no comeback.

My 1st partner Lesley, I've only ever had 2, who I met when I was 1 day old, she was 2 weeks older and loved each other, every minute we were together, for 42 years, and were as close as any couple could be, having 4 amazing kids together, parted ways, well I pushed her away, though I tell everyone it's because I lost my mum and job, the real reason was I couldn't give her what she wanted the most, only Lesley knows the truth, and we remain as close as ever, if anything, we're even closer, given recent events, but we both have wonderful new long time partners, who are comfortable and understanding of our relationship, even if they were a little suspicious early on, I'm waffling, sorry, I  just feel so lucky at times. XX

You're not waffling Eddie; a poignant story and I'm glad for you all that things worked out eventually.  It would make a good film - I'd write the screenplay, with poetic licence of course, and the whole community could attend the premier. Red carpet, paparazzi, autograph hunters... now I'm getting carried away.  Ahem!  Back to reality.  I've just seen a post from Big Stevie and the poor lad's had a shocker of a day, so I'm going to lend a shoulder if he wants one.

Hugs to you and Sheila xxx

I read about big Stevie's, girlfriend, truly an awful thing to have done to you at such a vulnerable time, and I wish the young fella all the strength he needs to get through the next few months, and I'm sure he'll appreciate your friendship and support my friend, xx 

Hi there Steve.  Well what a rotten day you've had.  Apart from the mess up with bloods, and the rest, it sounds like your partner's got cold feet.  Aw I am sorry - do you think it's just a blip and she'll think it over, or has she been thinking about it for a while?  How are you feeling?  That's important as you've got a lot to contend with.  If you'd rather not talk about it, that's absolutely fine, but I just want to say you have my heartfelt sympathy and any time you want to vent, here's the place to do it.

Wishing you better luck for tomorrow.  Hugs xxx

It's been on the cards for a while tbh.. while she did visit a few times while I was in hospital for 10 days, and helped get me home... she wasn't there for me coming out of an op where I thought I might lose my leg... then my mum moved in for the recovery and my partner called maybe once a week... she only lives no more than half an hour away... just been getting more and more distant so I offered her a get out and she grabbed it

I guessed that might have been the case, and obviously so did you when she started backing off.  But try not to blame yourself as none of it's your fault - some folk just can't handle difficult situations, but it would have been kinder for you if she'd have told you earlier.  It's an odd one as more often than not, it's blokes who ship out when a partner gets ill.  But there are always exceptions.  Don't get in the depths of despair, whatever you do, but I reckon you won't as reading your previous posts, you sound like you've got real strength of character.  Will your mum be your carer, or help you in the future?  What about Maggie? xxx

I've managed on my own since end of May so I'm fine... Maggie was a joint venture with my partner... it was agreed when we got her that I would keep her if things didn't work out... but now I've offered for her to take... selfishly I'll miss the company, but I don't have the ability or energy to walk her some days, AND she's only 4 so may very well live longer than me

I'm not gonna lie, there's always that possibility where Maggie's concerned, but let's not get ahead.  Ah, sorry, I didn't know your op was that far back, so you're obviously coping well.  Have you got a best mate or mates to see to take your mind off things?  If you're anything like me, you might prefer time to yourself xxx

Oh Stevie, I know we haven’t known one another for long but my heart goes out to you. People can be so cruel sometimes. I agree with Gill why didn’t she tell you earlier, although it sounds like you had an inkling about it. You are obviously a good person (cash is fine!) giving her an out and your dog.

I hadn’t intended to come on here tonight as I’ve been up since the crack of dawn (well it felt like it) to let painters in. They are back even earlier this morning, so I was going to do a few jigsaws then try for some sleep BUT I decided to have a Quick Look to make sure everyone was alright and having read your post, I had to reply! I hope chemo goes smoothly later and any side effects stay away. As Gill said, we are here for you if you want to chat about anything. Believe me, it is Her loss, you put all your strength into getting through your treatment!

Thanks Annette 

xo