Awake and up all night

Hi Gill,I love a quiz.I’ve got a varied music collection.I was brought up listening to Jazz and classical music.I think rock is probably the music I play the most.I look forward to chatting.Like Ray I’m from the bladder cancer group.Tc in the heat.Jane x

The punk fashions were interesting.When my sister was at university a little after punk was at its height a punk came over and asked if he could borrow her hairspray.A few days later he caught up with her in the bar and gave her money for replacements as he had used both cans.

I'm not going there Steve, both codes are extremely proud of their version of rugby, but apart from the obvious, union having 15 players and league 13, the main difference is at the breakdown,,"when a player is tackled," in league you must let the tackled player play the ball, in union youum can still compete for the ball.

PS, American football is based on rugby, the only rule change originally was you were allowed one forward pass, a beautiful game ruined, and why do grow men still play rounders.

Eddie xx 

I'm still no further forward.  What I do need is to move to Yorkshire to live, then it will all rub off on me.

That would help, and watch a couple of thousand matches and you'll pick up the basics, 

Eddie xx 

Nothing wrong with doin' that, tha knows!

I feel a bit like a fraud posting in here.  I had endometrial cancer and a total hysterectomy and no chemo nor radiotherapy.  I have lost track of exactly how long ago I think it is two years now.  I was hoping to rest and regather after but I went straight into survival mode dealing with my 90+ mum's rapidly deteriorating dementia and heart failure.  We'd been supporting her to live independently and I hadn't told her about the cancer - just told her I had 'lady problems' and needed it all removed.
But then we realised we couldn't go on as we were doing and she went into emergency care after an incident at home made it clear she needed 24/7 eyes on her and professional support.  That was the year after the cancer situation.  We ended up having to sort out selling the family home I grew up in - it had been in our family for 60 years. She was a hoarder and I was the one dealing with all of it.  I was exhausted and upset but gritted my teeth.
Now when things have settled I cannot properly trust anything especially with the news and world affairs.  
I do breathing exercises, use my CPAP machine every night, listen to audiobooks at bedtime, manage my diet rigidly because I control my diabetes by diet choices and exercise and no meds and I am getting to grips with a surgically induced menopause which seems to be a long slow uncertain experience.
I thought having my own bedroom and new bed would help. But it has turned into a massive faff with awful bed companies messing us about.  We are now at the stage of considering buying an IKEA wooden slat bed base and altering it to fit the highly expensive bespoke mattress I purchased expecting it to fit a handmade iron bed that arrived defective and unusable so we had to return it for a refund.  I then bought a standard quality 2'6" divan from a bed company and that arrived today covered in black oily marks - they are collecting it back on Monday and refunding us.
And under all that palaver is the little voice - what if the cancer comes back?  What if you don't have much time left?

I am exhausted.

Hi winkers, welcome, too was once on the  bladder cancer forum and remember you replying to my post, I'm sure I would have thanked you, if not, many thanks again, in my youth I liked punk music, though more so the people and,"dancing," one of our local clubs catered for all tastes, and Thursday night was punk night, with Exploited being my favourite band and Watto lead singer.

Eddie xx 

Thanks Eddie.I’m looking forward to chatting.Jane x

Please don’t feel like a fraud.Having been through a similar experience I feel for you as it is exhausting.I cared for my late mother who had end stage dementia.I had to put her into care when I got cancer.She died over 3 years ago and was a hoarder.It took over a year to clear the house even after house clearance.I was doing everything on my own.I’m living in the family home which has been up for sale for over a year.I hope you are able to sort out the problems with your bed and get some rest.Jane x