Awake and up all night

I'm struggling as next week I have a scan and kept all to myself 

Good evening amb and welcome to the group. Don't keep it to yourself. Plenty of people on here to talk to. It is normal to get anxious before a scan. The people on here call it scanxiety. Sending love and hugs.xxx

Good luck with your scan.xx

Evening Amb111 and a warm welcome from me too, on this too warm night.

Hey hon, try doing as Soc advised and start telling those close to you as well as us.

Who would you choose to tell most in your life, and how do you think they'd react to your news? Have a think about it as extra support is always good for your wellbeing.

I appreciate how ghastly scanxiety can be by proxy - every time my OH waits for a procedure or results I'm twice as bad as he is, although I keep that hidden from him, then feel even more anxious. It's rubbish but my new regime just might work. I've told myself that worrying all the time isn't the way forward and just sends me into darker places, so realising that worrying won't alter anything whatsoever, I'm going to stop. Immediately! I'll give myself the dubious luxury of worry when I find out the definitive cause of it.

In the meantime, a hopefully more relaxed attitude from myself will radiate towards OH and put us both in a better place. And I might then get some sleep.

If you can unjumble all that nonsense it might stop you worrying for a while and hopefully bore you to sleep! Result, I hope. Sending you hugs sweetheart xxx

Like Gill said try and unburden yourself. You need people to support you through this. You can't do it all on your own  a problem shared is good.xxx

Good morning everyone and welcome to group Amb111. I am the worst for anxiety and overthinking. But we wouldnt be human if we didnt worry. 

Cancer was never something on my radar if im honest so when i found out i had it all i done was cry. But i think as time goes by and after surgery and going through chemotherapy i think to myself im here today im getting on with life and hoping i am able to live a long hapoy life. 

I like to sit in our front garden look at the new apple tree my husband  planted in my honour a few weeks ago and look forward to reaching retirement in 8 years time.  

Hope youve all managed a nice restful sleep, we did. But will be awake now all day as im not a day time napper. 

Amanda xx

Soc

Hi im glad you had a nice day but i sympathise with the blue badge is dreadful to sort out they ask for so much information. I hope your successful cos it makes life so much easier. 

Thank you i do feel like i must get on my families nerves but im sure its just me worrying all the time. I am used to being the carer and not the cared for. Ive done it for 32 years for my daughter and now for my grandson whos 17 months old so it becomes a way of life but to now need to ask my hubby to help me is a bit alien.

Due to learning diffuculties she doesnt always have empathy or kind feelings which upsets me sometimes but also makes me laugh.

Do you mind me asking if your son is now ok after chemotherapy. 

Amanda 

Good morning everyone and welcome to group Amb111. I am the worst for anxiety and overthinking. But we wouldnt be human if we didnt worry. 

Cancer was never something on my radar if im honest so when i found out i had it all i done was cry. But i think as time goes by and after surgery and going through chemotherapy i think to myself im here today im getting on with life and hoping i am able to live a long hapoy life. 

I like to sit in our front garden look at the new apple tree my husband  planted in my honour a few weeks ago and look forward to reaching retirement in 8 years time.  

Hope youve all managed a nice restful sleep, we did. But will be awake now all day as im not a day time napper. 

Amanda xx

Good morning Amanda, my lovely  

After reading your post you're 100% correct about not being able to not worry - if we care it's in our nature and the first thing I did on waking up was begin to worry again. Bang goes my new regime, but I'll put some effort in and give it a whirl.

Sweetheart, you're such an inspiration - putting your heart and soul into caring for others is commendable but now you've found yourself on the other side of the fence may have left you feeling somewhat out of control. I know that's how it would affect me as I'm so used to taking the reins. But it's clear you've got a brilliant husband right behind you, so allow him to care and carry some of the pressure for you. What a lovely gesture he made, planting the apple tree in your honour, so imagine watching it grow to bear fruit your whole family can enjoy for years to come.

Your post has given me a lift this morning, particularly the part about reaching your retirement. I officially reached retirement age almost 2 years ago, sort of as my new 'job' coincided with that, but OH has still got nearly 6 years to go before he reaches state pension age. After morbid thoughts about him not ever reaching that particular goal, I'm going to adopt your mindset and look forward to him getting his bank account swollen with monthly injections of cash. It's something all you heroes deserve so look forward to your retirement sweetheart, and watch your tree thrive whilst doing it.

Enjoy the sunshine and life in general Amanda, and sending you and your family lots of love xxx

Good morning all. We had the biggest storm we have had for years at 4am this morning. It was amazing there was so much lightning and so much rain. It’s so humid now apparently it’s going to be 39 degrees today in London. I’m celebrating 3 years since my hysterectomy today I definitely didn’t think I would be here this time 3 years ago. 

Linda xxx